Maybe..

Maybe...we were supposed to meet the wrong people before meeting the right one so that, when we finally meet the right person, we will know how to be grateful for that gift.

Maybe...it is true that we don't know what we have until we lose it,but it is also true that we don't know what we have been missing until it arrives.

Maybe...the brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past;after all, you can't go on successfully in life until you let go of your past mistakes, failures and
heartaches.

Maybe...you should hope for enough happiness to make you sweet, enough trials to make you strong, enough sorrow to keep you human, and enough hope to make you happy.

Maybe...the happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of everything; they just make the most of everything that comes along their way.

Maybe...the best kind of friend is the kind you can sit on a porch and swing with, never say a word, and then walk away feeling like it was the best conversation you've ever had(a/c,happy feet & dreamer should agree with this)

Maybe...happiness waits for all those who cry, all those who hurt, all those who have searched, and all those who have tried, for only they can appreciate the importance of all the people who have touched their lives.

Maybe...you should do something nice for someone every single day, even if
it is a complete stranger.

Maybe...there are moments in life when you miss someone -- a parent, a friend, a relative -- so much that you just want to pick them from your dreams and hug them for real, so that once they are around you appreciate them more.

Maybe giving someone all your love is never an assurance that they will love you back. Don't expect love in return; just wait for it to grow in their heart; but, if it doesn't, be content that it grew in yours.

Maybe... we should live more, laugh longer and love unconditionally:)

Randomness

Growing up, I thought I was as random as one could get BUT two people totally proved me wrong. So much for a random visit. LOL. I swear I could have died of shock when i realised they also decided to stop by.

Oh thanx for such an awesome day Sunny:) You're the BESTEST friend ever(To the gang: you guys are nothing less-I love you all)! Yes, i will more then consider Nathan campus for second semester. Being with you makes me smile an everlasting smile,eventhough we are total opposites, I'm glad to have someone like you who'll always be there for me. You have no idea how comforting it feels to have someone like you around me.(Yes, the next time I fall sick, you'll be the first to know)

Somedays I wonder how I managed to get such awesome friends:)

Thanx Loser:)

"Well, your eyes are puffy- Which, from experience, screams textbook crying eyes. You have your hair up, so you’re probably not planning on impressing any boys today. I’d say you’re nursing a hell of a broken heart, and not the school girl crush kind, you’re dealing with the real thing"

As said by happy feet:)

I didnt know webcamming was so revealing!:P

Love you.xo

:)

When you look at yourself in the mirror, who do you see looking back? Is it the person you want to be? Or is there someone else? Were you meant to be the person you were meant to be but fell short of? Remember, you're not alone. If you look closely you might see someone like you. Someone trying to find their way; someone trying to find their place; someone trying to find their self. Sometimes it’s easy to feel like you’re the only one in the world who’s struggling, who’s frustrated, or unsatisfied at barely getting by.

But, that feeling is a lie and if you just hold on; just find the courage to face it all for another day, someone or something will find the way and make it all okay. Because we all need a little help sometimes, someone to help us hear the music in the world. To remind us that it won’t always be this way. That someone is out there, and that someone will find you.


Believe that love is out there. Believe that dreams come true every day. Because they do. Sometimes happiness doesn’t come from money or fame or power. Sometimes happiness comes from good friends and family and the quiet nobility of leading a good life. Believe that dreams come true every day. Because they do. So take a look in that mirror and remind yourself to be happy because you deserve to be.

Let it be..

She’s not like that now. She knows better. She knows now that people lie and promises can be broken as quick as they are made. She understands that good things fly in front of your eyes before you can reach out and grab them. She knows that you can’t change or help time, so every now and then, it’ll just run out.

There isn’t a place for everyone in the world, so if you’re standing alone for a while, that’s why. Not everything in life comes easy, but when you work the hardest, that’s when it’s your best.Everyone will be broken at some point in their life, and more often then not. It’s gonna hurt like hell, but you can’t stop it. You can’t change your own fate.

At some point, when you have experienced everything you can, the words “life” and “risk” won’t mean anything to you anymore. But don’t try and change that. stuff like that is meant to happen. Over time, certain things no longer have an affect on you, and that happens cause that’s the way its suppose to be. But you’ll learn all that later in life when little things like a sunrise or a spring rain start to matter. But it might catch you off guard and happen sooner. I mean, ask her. She knows....


He thinks she deserves better....
She thinks he is PERECT in his IMPEFECT ways...

I Believe In...

I believe in friends and the learning that comes from laughter, tears and stories shared...

I believe in the wisdom that can be found in fun && the bonds that are formed out of trust and honesty...

I believe in the strength of one hand holding another through times of trouble and the miracle of perfectly-timed smiles and hugs...

I believe in disagreeing with everything you say,not because you're wrong but because I love the way you defend your views...

I believe in friendship like ours...

Thanx for being such an awesome roomie:)

(You're still a loser && you're not the only one that can write poems!)

Everything you do..

For ever heart that finds love...
There is a heart that cries.

For every dream that is reborn...
There is a dream that dies.

For every day filled with sun...
There is a day of rain.

For every hour filled with joy...
There is an hour of pain.

For every smile upon a face...
There is a tear to cry.

For ever fond hello you say...
There is a sad goodbye.

Confused

I've seen your eyes in the morning sun,I've felt you warmth in the pouring rain. You're like a warm summer breeze, you keep me warm in your love and then softly leave making me want even more.

I had coulds of doubt surround me all ready to break like a storm, but your words helped bring out the rainbow even before the storm hit. I trust your words, because I've seen the honesty in your eyes. Many have told me to do otherwise,I really hope you don't let me down (You really wouldn't want my friends from back home hunting you down;))


If I ever got lost would I find something in your eyes to lead me home? And if it all went wrong would you be there to hold it all together?
It's easy to be there through the good times but when the times get hard. Would you stay or walk away?

& she decided

There are things that we don't want to happen but have to accept..
Things we don't want to know but have to learn..
&& people we can't live without but have to let go

I'll still turn around and say it was all worth it:)

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Its weird how you feel when you start making decisions while listening to your heart. After a few moments of happiness you get a box full of sorrow and loneliness. Tears and self doubt are also part of the package.

As soon as i close my eyes all the memories come rushing back,I can see you face in front of me in broad day light and your memories haunt me through the moonlit nights.

If ever I get to meet god, I'll make it a point to ask him why he gave us a body made of soil yet a heart made of glass and cursed it with the quality of falling head over heels for someone!!! If only he had given us glue gun to put all the bits and pieces of the "shattered glass" back together.

The brightness of the sun seems to have dulled down by itself. The rain seems a lot dryer nowadays and even the breeze seems to have found a new direction to blow through. Time seems to have stopped and everything goes back to that one moment!

Thanx guys for bearing with me through out the day! YES, 4-eyes the choc sundae was YUMMM!:):)

Flashback

Going down that same road brought back so many memories. Its only been a while but it seems like forever. So much has changed,the place & the people. But you guys are still the same!:)

Now i remember why i never went out in the wind! DAMN POLLEN! I forgot what it felt like to sneeze non-stop! Thanx to the weather here,i got to relive those moments once more!:@ 3 anti-allergy tablets and it still hasn't stopped! God bless the pollen and dust!

I keep dreading about the day i go back,here being with you guys has kept me from thinking about stuff. Things i don't really have the courage to face. Its the feeling you get when you're 4 and you spend the whole day at the beach building the BEST sand castle ever and all it takes is one strong "wave" to bring is crashing down.

I remember every word that you said, It all just keeps spinning around in my head
But no matter what I try to do I can't get you out of my head And I don't want to think about you so much.Just when I think about someone new...I keep on forgetting to forget about you:(

Truth Hurts

When I'm with my friends I feel as though nothing in the world could hurt me. They filter the pain sadness and sorrow and turn them in to roars of laughter which show the happiness from the heart.I was lucky enough to have been surrounded by all of them when you left me at crossroads.

As unbreakable as I may seem from the outside, I'm twice as vulnerable from the inside. I'm glad you were honest about what happened,but It's just something I cannot forgive OR forget. It was just one of those situations where i prayed that I heard the wrong thing. I was just not ready to believe you could do such a thing,I could pretend that It never happened just to make things go back to the way they were,but I told you once that I give my friends and my loved ones my all but if they lose my trust its gone forever.

I don't have it in me to face you, and thats the way it has to be.

Awesomness

one word! WOW, thats all i can say! The flight was entertaining, i didn't know sitting next to 2 Norwegian girls could be so entertaining( no offense roomie) these guys were insane!Myrun and Sigrrid! (hope i spelt it right) hahahaha.... The "orange juice was exceptionally tasty":) Hope i get to see you guys again! If not, thanx for entertaining me through out the trip! I love you guys!<3

Saturday night was awesome, at least the bits i can recall! Though i didn't plan on being the one who had to drag everyone in the gang back home! I really love you guys and i cannot explain in words how happy i was when i got to see you all. To a/c: If me surprising you, brings tears to your eyes, I promise you this, it will never happen again. Even if they were tears of happiness..... I never want to be the reason your eyes weep.


Can't wait for tonight:) Another night of awesomeness with the friends that mean more then the world to me.


=]

LOST REMOTE

I think the concept of no one will be home will 4 should not be trusted very much!
SCENE ONE
Certain someone decided crashing on the couch would be entertaining, so it was till they started throwing pop corn and eventually ended up in a cushion/tickling war!
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The war subsided after the while but they remained in the same position and decided to watch HI5.
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SCENE TWO
Certain someones Aunt walks in, with them in that position! Just slightlyyyyyyyyyyyy awkward!!!

Aunt- HEY
A&E- Uhh HELLO( So stunned that they forgot to get up and sit properly)
Aunt- So what are you guys up to?
A&E- uhhh...umm...Looking for the remote that seems to have disappeared in the couch
Aunt- Oh the remote that on the coffee table in front of you?
A&E- Oh yeah.. RIGHT!(*right about now E feels like sinking into the floor and disappearing forever*)
Aunt- Soo you guys have fun, i just came by to return you mums recipe book.
A&E- Both attempt to get off the couch at the same time and tangle over and fall flat on the floor on top of each other! CLASSIC!
*Aunt laughs till shes in tears and walks out politely*
*A gets up and tries to control his laughter*
*E just wishes she could crawl into a hole and stay there forever*


THE END!

Choclates:)

I cannot believe how exceptionally lame my reply was that night! And you wouldn't stop laughing!:@ Oh well, another day wasted txting,LIBRARY-ing and aimlessnes! The best bit of the day would have had to be pizza, which unfortunatly i wasn't able to finish:(

Thoughts for the day:
we hide behind a skin that only 'appears' to be tough
we don't say I love you enough, atleast those meaningful ones...
we all have things that are left unsaid at the end of the day, what happens if the tomorrow you're waiting for never comes?!
we don't know what we have till its gone BUT we also don't know what we've been missing out on till it arrives:)
we all have fun but there are very people I'm surrounded by that are genuinely happy
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Finally found the book, took almost a week to find that. Thats actually reasonable considering the mess my room is in at the time being! I hope roomie likes that. I know it wasn't much, but it was worth the effort trying to fix her mood.

:)

Yes, I've had a million people ask me about the sudden boost in excitement!!!

I finally realised my mistake, I'm glad you were patient enough to listen, kind enough to understand and caring enough to forgive. I know i can be stubborn at times but you saw all through that. I was just scared to let go and venture out into something so different..

Some moments no matter how exciting or interesting, the mind fails to recall, others so simple and suttle yet it becomes embedded in your memory and stiks to you head like a song on replay. Thats exactly how that moment is in my head and i want it to stay there forever:)


The waves, so peaceful and serene,caressed by the soft moonlight,gave magical feelings to the night.The soft blue glow,the lovers' words that then did flow,their lips closer and closer until, locked in the throes of a passionate embrace,he decided to express his feelings,to keep her safe.He whispered softly,his words like music to her ears,"You mean ALOT more to me,More then you'll ever know,"and her response the same,heard like the gentle breeze,"I...I...I.. Like You abit more then I like choclates":):).That was the night they promised to be together to take on the world. And be there for each other no matter what happened! An unexplainable bond of togetherness without a label, let the mystery puzzle the world, we couldn't care less! Relationships are messy and people eventually get hurt, we're young once...we should live laugh and love and keep the serious stuff for later on!;-)

Thank you for making me smile through my heart!:D

DAMN quicklist!:@

Sending messages were WAY eaiser without having to deal with those damn quick lists!:@ I always end up sending messages to the wrong people!!!

Though this time around I was glad it went to roomie and not anyone else, Shes still trying to put the pieces together, I'll eventually tell her whats it about, don't feel like killing the suspence for the time being.

Pretty funny how a few words can change your perspective about situations, i've told you my weakness, i've poured my heart out to you. I understand you aren't superman....you're only human..you feel as much as I do...you see as much as I do...I know you can't make everything perfect for me BUT I'm glad you're willing to be by my side through those not-so-perfect moments:) Thats all I ask for..

Those that I thought the highest of eventually let me down, those that I cared about eventually left without thinking twice about how I would feel. I've learnt from these mistakes, NO I'm not saying that I will be prepared for it the next time something as such happens...because thats just not possible. Though I will be careful about the kind of people I surround myself with so that I don't let anything like that happen..

ALMOST DONE WITH ASSIGNMENT!:):)

The gangs request!;-)

I've finally gotten round to doing what you guys asked me to do a million years ago!:)
Kay-My totally opposite Siamese twin! I still can't why you're so calm and collected. Organised and practical!! Everything i'm not/ever going to be!! Those LATE night calls (or should i say early morning talks!) Thanx for always being there, you were the one that always showed me a deeper meaning towards things. You know I'd never say this in person because you know "how" expressive I'm in terms of emotion!:P but I'm really grateful to have someone like you to look up to. You're the only one that can get me back on track when I start to drift away. You've always been like my bullet proof vest:) I love you so much for that!


Air Con- My lovable loser,The most famous love hate friendship of '08!!!!! I have no idea who met who first,or how we became friends. The only things i remember are those rib tickling lab classes,fighting for the best seat,playing rock paper scissors to see GP, tripping on hot guys,making fun of juniors,those u19 soccer matches!;) The bus rides where all of us usually ended up on the floor...the list is never ending and i hope that's how it remains!! I really miss your laugh! I know I'm not there with you,but I promise you this if ever you need me there, let me know. I won't hesitate to be there for you. You're the BEST loser ever=]


Bush Man-The insane bush man! I reckon I was the only one in school that could keep up with your hyper activeness!!! I still remember the day you chased me with the mop around the senior block!But nothing beats your SKILLS at rugby!!!!<3 Chinese TV shows were the best stress reliever! Those mid night fone calls just to see if i was awake, and then competing to see who was able to stay up the latest. You know more about me then i actually know about myself, you were the only one that realised the vulnerability in my eyes." I know you are eager to start a new beginning,but your eyes tell a different story, I saw you smiling and saying you last goodbyes to everything you knew,grew up with and loved more then life itself but your eyes....there is something about them today,they seem to want to move on yet not let go.." YES i remember the whole conversation:D Thanx for watching over me, EVEN THOUGH you are still 10 days younger then me!:P I love you more then you'll ever know



Others coming up soon, please don't kill me, This was in no specific order ALL of you guys mean the world to me!

Jaane Kyun...

Kyun hum unhi logoon pas vishwaas kartein hai jo hume anth mein dkhoka de jaatein hai? Aaj mere sath kuch aisi hi baat hui. Baat utni bhi ghambeer nahi thi lekin bharosa ek bahut hi mahatwapurna cheez hai...well, for me it is!! And i guess thats where i went wrong!:(

Aise logoon par vishwaas karna meri purani galti hai! Aasha hai ki aaj ke baad yeh naubat na aaye ki jispe main bharosa karoon wahi mujhe dhoka de jaye!

It's like walking on egg shells at the moment....trying to control and hold yourself together. I would rather isolate myself for the time being, kyonki kisi ko kuch bhuri tarha kehne se toh acha hai!

Trust ek sheeshe ki tarha hota hai, ek baar jo toot jaye, woh dobara jur sakta hai lekin it will never go back to being the same....

Change...

Today my roomie asked me a question, one that has me thinking till now..... What she said was in fact very true. I'm...well at least i wasn't someone who would do things like that....I was never someone who let things go over board. So, for once her question left me speechless.

I made a promise to you guys that i wouldn't change, i wouldn't forget about who I'm or where I'm from.......now i feel as though I haven't kept my end of the bargain..... Maybe its knowing the fact that no ones watching you and there is no one to judge you that has led me down this path. Then again, I don't want to make excuses for my actions because the final decision was always mine.

I can't change what has happened, but i do ensure you guys that none of this will happen again..(well at least anytime soon;-)

Thanx roomie for getting my "Fijian Brain" back to the way it should have been with your question:)!

A new day- A new begining

I really should stop blogging midday because i leave out most of the important details. Like getting soaked in the rain while playing tag! Its amazing how we forgot everything for a moment and just let ourselves go. I would not have walked back in the thunder/lightening/rain had you not been there. I'm glad you didn't get struck by lightening:P I would never be able to replace such an "awesome" surf instructor!

One thing I've learnt is that the important things in life are the ones worth waiting for. Patience is a virtue i have yet to learn because we can't always get what we want. In my case, I have absolutely no idea what i want and that's what makes me even more impatient. Knowing the fact that there is someone else that is waiting for your decision is even more painful as each day gone by is another day wasted.

I think letting go is the best thing to do for now because holding on is just too painful. What is makes matters worse is letting something so special pass by because of my insecurities.

I just want you to know:
sometimes we joke; and sometimes we're serious.
Sometimes we're just indulged in random talking that doesn't make sense to anyone(even us)And sometimes we don't talk at all.
But all of the times- I feel comfortable with you,and I trust you with every word I say.
You will find someone better:)

Ohhh Yeah, crazy girl has gone for her creative writing feedback!! Can't wait to hear about how it went. I really like her thoughts, maybe....just maybe, one day I'll have a serious conversation with her(maybe not). She is a total kick ass artist && totally creative reminds me of air con;-). I'll post some of her stuff... soon...!

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...I don't need somebody to complete me. I want you to know - I'll give up my love,
BUT I'm not giving up my soul..

It's like trying to catch your shadow- IMPOSSIBLE!

It was just one of those days where you felt everything would go well.....that was very much true, till i got a glimpse of him again. All those thoughts that i dreaded for the past week came rushing back.With a weak smile and heavy heart i decided to stop over and talk with him.

The pain in his eyes was almost impossible to miss. I could see he tried his best to cover it up with his usual jokes but it just didn't seem to do the trick this time around. What hurt even more was knowing the fact that I was the reason for him being in that state.

We only said a few words, the silence did the rest of the talking. It's times like these you wish you could start over...or turn back time even though impossible as it may seem. Its not that i enjoy doing this to him. I wish he would understand my side of the story. I guess in the end it is my fault after all because i haven't told him the reason.

I'm worried about his reaction. Would he understand my insecurities?? Would he understand my side of the story???

Him being perfect in so many ways might be the reason for my indecisiveness.......Oh well, right now I don't have it in me to face the situation. Yeah, you can call me a "kicken".. It's just impossible to give an answer...

why do all the rivers flow into the ocean? And why does all the love in the world come strait from the heart? And why does all the pain I feel come from deep inside? Oh, all those questions I could have answered ... if you were by my side

BACK TO MARKETING!!!!

Yippiiieee

Yessss, total awesomeness!!!!!! GUESS WHY???

I finally started with my Marketing assignment! That too with motivation from dodgy's cousin! Yes, the one i've only met twice! A much needed outing on Thursday night just sounds TOO tempting....;)

I have to get this assignment done by thursday so that i can move on with another major assignments! ARRGHHHH week 10 will definitly NOT be my favourite week!:(

....tip top lick lock....

back to marketing for the time being!!!;-)

AWESOME SONG!<3

Every now and then I get a little bit lonely and you're never coming round
Every now and then I get a little bit tired of listening to the sound of my tears,
Every now and then I get a little bit nervous that the best of all the years have gone by,
Every now and then I get a little bit terrified and then I see the look in your eyes bright eyes, Every now and then I get a little bit restless and I dream of something wild,
Every now and then I get a little bit helpless and I'm lying like a child in your arms,
Every now and then I get a little bit angry and I know I've got to get out and cry,
Every now and then I get a little bit terrified but then I see the look in your eyes...

TURN AROUND<3

Tag- You're IT!

So, its Monday!! Officially the worst day of the week! I have 2 lectures! Ones over and done with! Another one to go from 6-8! Someone save me from the pain!!!!!

Met up with Jess, shes eager about getting rid of the marketing assignment! ( YES, the one i haven't started with).Plan on pulling an all nighter at dodgy's place( hope music isn't a distaction as usual, OR trips to the beach).....

I just realised how insane my friends are, the gang calls me up from the library and decides to sing "Straight Through My Heart" Hoorrrrayyy for BSB! LOL.


Missed the gang back home so bad last night.........just the fact that someones there for you. It was just one of those days where a simple hug would make you feel so much better,even though nothing was wrong.... I miss the comfort of being with friends who used to annoy me everyday yet drop everything and be there for me if ever i felt alone. Oneof the many perks of being the youngest in the lot;-)!!!! Oh well gone are those days.... not that i'm not in touch with them anymore....it's just that distance does become a problem.


Oh well, i better penn off now!

Till tomorrow...

Marketing + Confusion! ARGHHHHHH

Shampoos aren't my favourite things at the moment! ARRGHHH!

I really have to get on with my marketing assignment which is about evaluating a bottle of shampoo!!(how wonderful). I need big time motivation as well as a diversion from the distractions.

Last night was hilarious. Having 2 random guys walk into our apartment is exactly what you need at 1 in the morning. The crazy Norwegian suffered from giggling fits which made it almost impossible to have a conversation without bursting into mad fits of laughter. I should come up with a new nickname for her, i guess dysfunctional doesn't suit her anymore. How does nitrous oxide sound? LOL. I have no idea why but i totally get a kick out of teasing her, I've promised that I'd be nice to her from today since she finds that to be totally awkward. It's actually funny, because we have become so used to finding ways to annoy each other that an aura of niceness just seems too awkward to handle. But she is definitely one of those few people that could light up a dull day with her randomness.

She is pretty stressed out at the moment which i totally dislike but there isn't much I can do to help her out. I guess letting her know that things will be OK is easier said then done... Old habits die hard....and i can't see people around me sad and i bet the gang back home would vouch for that;-) I do hope she gets through this situation and goes back to being her cheeky cheerful self:):)

"I guess we are who we are for a lot of reasons. & maybe we'll never know most of them. But even if we don't have the power to choose where we come from, we can still choose where we go from there".
((The Perks Of Being A Wallflower by Stephen Chbosky ))

Back To Blogging

Ahhh, finally after a much needed 8 month break from blogging, I'm back:)
It's Saturday...a painfully slow Saturday. I should be getting on with an assignment which is due exactly a week from today BUT as usual I've deferred that activity to a later date.

So much to do, so much to see...it's like discovering a whole new world. Though there are certain moments when do I look back and question my decision to venture out alone. But those moments quickly fade away when I go off on one of my little adventures. In the past 3 months I've learnt more about life then i ever had, (Well maybe thats a tad bit exaggeration...) This is very much a learning experiance for me.

As usual I didn't have a problem making friends, most of whome are very much similar to the ones i have back home. One thing I've learnt is that you do not have to change yourself inorder to fit in. Others will love you for who you are rather than what you are when you're with them. Yeah, this was a very short insight into my little adventure!!!
I'll keep you guys updated, as for now I'm heading off to grab some food.
xoxo