Moments

You prepare yourself throughout the day. Thoughts all scattered in your head trying your best not to let everything get to you, Put yourself in bubble and stay out of the way of everything and just watch...

You think...about how things will never be the same...about how much has changed since the first day we met...about how much has happened...Every time you see her
you remember those unforgettable moments

You know it was bound to happen but sometimes no matter how much you prepare for something it still affects you...

That one dreaded good-bye comes and goes in the blink of and eye..You are left standing..frozen in the moment...there but not there at the same time. You're trying to get your thoughts right as well as trying your very to best to fight that lump in your throat and the stinging sensation in your eyes. You know that if this continued you will not be able to stand it...you fight with all your might to keep those emotions inside you.

Its too hard for you to handle all that so you cut it short and put on that ever so famous "it doesn't matter,I'll be alright" attitude.You make her laugh and send her off without saying all the things that you wanted to say. She might think her departure didn't matter to me at all. She might think you didn't care about her at all.But the truth is I cared...maybe abit too much...which made it even harder to say goodbye!!!

You turn around and it hits you like a wave, that was it.You will get to see her again but never in the same way. You curse yourself for not being able to say all of those things that you wanted, but its too late. You promise yourself to get around to telling her how much you valued her friendship and that you'd miss her more than she could ever imagine and hope that she understands why you didn't say all those things when you had the chance.

Aksar

Aksar Is Duniya Mein, Anjaane Milte Hain,Anjaani Raaho Mein, Milke Kho Jaate Hain,Lekin Hameshaa Woh Yaad Aate Hain...

Patience

Please, just be patient. I'm so afraid to care about someone as much. I know it seems like I'm this strong girl who can get through everything,who seems carefree, but inside I'm very fragile.

I lack the courage that you expect me to have and I admit I make mistakes and I'm sorry for that but you also have to understand my side of the story.I know I'm hopelessly immature when it comes to certain things and you're endlessly responsible.

All I ask for is a bit of patience from you.

:D

Its always fun to make someone jealous:D:D (not so much when it happens to you)

Choice

Sometimes you have to deal with things in a way you never thought you would have to.

Sometimes you have to hurt people for their own future betterment

Sometimes you're a given a choice to make a decision and sometimes circumstances are such that you have no choice.

We are never given things that we are not capable of handling.

There will always be a way....I know there will...

Speech Day '08

I was goin through the old junk on my laptop and I found the senior class graduation speech.

"If you teach us the rules, we'll show you how to break them. When we walk, we walk with a passion. When we talk, we talk like we can take on the world. When we believe in something; we put our whole hearts into it and nothing in the world can change that. When we want something; we don't stop till we get it. If we care about you; we will never give up on you even if the whole world is against you. I guess we are just those kids that you only find once in a lifetime and when you do;you never let go.

We walk out of here today nt knowing what tomorrow holds. But the friends made and the memories created will forever be a part of eveyone here"

Late Update!

Happy New Year/Naya saal mubarak ho/Nutan Varshbhinandan/Felice anno nuovo &&&&&& Godt Nyttår

No resolutions for this year! They never seem to work out for me. Just a simple guideline with a few things I wish to work on for this year:

Will not let any of my friendships die out because I didn't have time to stay in touch.
Look at the sunny side of everything and make my optimism come true!!
To wear a cheerful countenance at all times and greet every person I meet with a smile.

& above it all try and make this decade better than the previous one=)

A change of routine

I had nothing to do, so I decided to venture out and find something interesting to do because I obviously did not expect "fun" to come looking for me. I ended up doing alot of things:

-I helped someone cross the road today.
-I gave candy to a little boy.
-I held the door open for someone that had her hands full with groceries.
-I started a random conversation with a person I saw at the park. Turns out he suffers from a heart disorder and doesn't have long to live. He always wanted someone to talk to him like a normal person and without the sympathy factor. He reckons I made his day by talking to him, I say he's left a lasting impression on me for life. He has accepted his fate with open arms and he only wishes to enjoy the Little things that life has to offer. I may never get to see him again but I will certainly never forget him.


It felt like old times once again. Maybe I should do this more frequently...I like the feeling of satisfaction...I like helping people...I like making them smile...