Moments

You prepare yourself throughout the day. Thoughts all scattered in your head trying your best not to let everything get to you, Put yourself in bubble and stay out of the way of everything and just watch...

You think...about how things will never be the same...about how much has changed since the first day we met...about how much has happened...Every time you see her
you remember those unforgettable moments

You know it was bound to happen but sometimes no matter how much you prepare for something it still affects you...

That one dreaded good-bye comes and goes in the blink of and eye..You are left standing..frozen in the moment...there but not there at the same time. You're trying to get your thoughts right as well as trying your very to best to fight that lump in your throat and the stinging sensation in your eyes. You know that if this continued you will not be able to stand it...you fight with all your might to keep those emotions inside you.

Its too hard for you to handle all that so you cut it short and put on that ever so famous "it doesn't matter,I'll be alright" attitude.You make her laugh and send her off without saying all the things that you wanted to say. She might think her departure didn't matter to me at all. She might think you didn't care about her at all.But the truth is I cared...maybe abit too much...which made it even harder to say goodbye!!!

You turn around and it hits you like a wave, that was it.You will get to see her again but never in the same way. You curse yourself for not being able to say all of those things that you wanted, but its too late. You promise yourself to get around to telling her how much you valued her friendship and that you'd miss her more than she could ever imagine and hope that she understands why you didn't say all those things when you had the chance.